Ev'rything's Gonna Be All Right

Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright
Ev'rything's gonna be alright

So, no woman, no cry
No, no woman, no woman, no cry
Oh, little darling, don't shed no tears
No woman, no cry. 
---Bob Marley


For some reason, this is all I could think about about after I talked to my mom today. She met with her specialist, and it was all good news. If cancer & good news can ever belong in the same sentence, that is. My mom's gonna be alright. I can stop crying myself to sleep at night.


They caught it early. It's stage 1. It's small, about a centimeter and a half. She'll have a lumpectomy, followed by radiation treatments, after she's recovered from the surgery. They'll do more tests including a special dye test and biopsy, which will let us know if it's spread to her lymph nodes. The doctor was really positive and said she'd be surprised if it had. We feel so blessed!


I went to the temple today. I probably shouldn't have gone because I've been pretty sick. It's like my body just fell apart and reacted to all the emotional stress I've been having lately. I brought tissue, cough drops unwrapped & ready to go in in my pocket, along with hand sanitizer, thanks to Ben's coaching. I didn't want to get the little old ladies sick and tried to sit in the back by myself so I wouldn't pass this on to others. I felt so strongly that if I couldn't be with my mom physically when she found out the details, I needed to be in the house of the Lord. The place she taught me to go when I need comfort and peace. I was there for a few hours, and before I left, I felt a strong burning in my heart. I was still nervous, but I knew it was going to be all right. 


And it is. I can talk about it without crying now. Ev'rything's gonna be alright. Ev'rything's gonna be alright.